Apologies for not posting in so long--i didn't live at home for the longest time. I actually kept passover kosher with my gf for a few days. But now i'm back in the grind. Those are dates, kosher cream cheese and kosher turkey breast on the right.
Added later: What happens? No food disappears in almost two weeks. I gave the girlfriend some money for the groceries I was consuming over there. Luckily I knew I was going there, and trying to keep kosher, so I threw a bunch of perishable and leavened stuff in the freezer: danishes, fresh pizza, cookie dough.
And what was with my camera this time around? I think I stood a little further back when I shot it. I think I was inebriated at the time... guess that's what happens when you try to fit a blog into your normal life.
Last but not least, the lemons are still there. Today was the first time I thought seriously about removing them, because visually (finally!) they're not usable. But I left them for nostalgia's sake. They're part of the story now, and as such, part of my life. I wonder if this the first step toward being a "hoarder." (Did you see the Esquire article on that?) Did you ever leave something in your fridge for this reason?
Although not exactly similar, this reminds me of a funny story. My ex used to have feelings for inanimate objects and I thought it silly; illogical, even. For example, she kept a stuffed animal on the dresser not because of something it meant to her, but rather the feelings IT would have if she put it in the closet. Obviously she wasn't insane—just a sensitive, imaginative person. Eventually I decided to not let it bother me.
One day I bought a new toilet and installed it, leaving the old one on the curb for the garbage service to remove. I could tell it was an original from the early-1970s prairie style house. Getting ready for class the next morning, I caught a glimpse of the garbage men out our front window. Curious about how they would deal with the heavy porcelain, I kept watching. One man hoisted. Another man hit a button. Easy enough. Then the machinery hit the pot's breaking point—CRACK.
The breaking of my heart echoed the breaking of the toilet. All I could think of was, that thing had honorably disposed of 30 years'-worth of human waste, and I forced it to meet its end. I didn't allow myself to rationalize my disposal of the toilet (for example, "where would I have put the damn thing?)... I wanted to feel bad for it. Because I wanted to understand the woman who was my wife. I've never forgotten that.